“Daddy had to say Goodbye” is based on a true story of how a severely broken man hides his mental illness. Good looks, poise, humor and engaging grace covers his many scars. He struggles to find the will to live by saving other people’s lives. But develops PTSD from his work as a Paramedic and Police Officer. Conjoined with his lifelong depression and alcoholism, Clinton Flanagan faces the hard end. The taste of gun oil from his duty weapon, brings him out of his alcohol induced black out. It was “Eat a bullet and die now or get my life right.” He knew what he had to do but feared he didn’t have the courage to live sober and face his truths. Gutting himself of his false pride and ego was a tall order. Taking responsibility and not blaming others would be all but impossible. Thinking that the pain of living had to be worse than the pain of dying was a constant. Surrender was his only hope.